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Monday, 06 July 2009

  • The end. Not so happy ending.

    Okay, I'm wrong... I'm sorry.

     

    Theres nothing else I can do now to make it right as you said.

    Deep down, even thought you haven't said it, you don't wana be with me anymore.

    Theres nothing else I can do to make things right anymore. I was being selfish, but if you really cared, you would've let me do it to chuck that backsack off my back.

    Nothing can go right anymore.

    I told you, I'd do anything to make it right, but you don't trust me anymore.

    The tears that rolled down my eyes, was nothing to you.

     

    -

     

    Okay, so now you told me you wana be friends. The effort we made, the times we had... is gonna go to waste?

    Couldn't you hang on a little longer with me? I'm sure things would've worked out.

     

    Can't hang on... ~

     

     

    Nothing I can do... pointless. No chance to correct the mistake made. This is the real thing... not a practise paper...

    From the start I knew, nothing last forever.

     

    290309 til now. <3

     

    Re - edit,

    It's only been a while, but just knowing the fact were not together anymore hurts... I miss you...

    Don't tell me things you won't do.

Monday, 29 June 2009

  • 3 months baby <3

    Happy three months baby <3333

    90 days with youuu <3 so longgg!! xD but it will be even longerr luu ^^

    although this earlier this month we had a few fights due to disagreements but im glad that it is out of the way and we know..well at least i know what i wont do to upset you anymore and give us a more of a happy life <3

    these 3 months we have experienced alot i think. things we have experienced have brought us closer. i understand you more and can see how you feel more and moree and yes, relationships you have to give in alot of effort and hard work and even if you dont see it baby, i do put in alot of effort lah..i do try and make you feel speical lah..make you feel your important, make you feel loved. Things i do is all for youu is all worth it because i love you. i have loved you from the very beginning and alway have and always will. my love for you will not fade because it is so strong. i never wanna be apart from you because it hurts me so much and you know it does. this really shows how much i love you ying..because if i didnt care as much..i would of been like..what the heck, i dont care, apart mai apart lorr..a new one will come. but the thng is, it dont bother me about new ones or new man in my life, because you are the one for me. i cant seem to let go of you. i want to be with you forever. actually..i NEED to be with youu..so please..do not leave me. Even for arguements, if it gets really big..please do not have the thought of breaking up in your head because thats the last thing i want to happen. it is normal for couples to argue, couples have disagreements alot because they care for eachother alot but once we tell eachother or maybe even have a fight about it, after we thought it through when we are calm..you would even think okay..this is why we had the arguement or whtever. to me, everytime we argue, i think things through after when im on my own and calm and i wouldnt say it was stupid for the arguements but i think that letting things out like that is good because we get a better understanding of eachother and will put the effort of not letting it happen again to make life happier. also, the effort i have put into the relationship to save it, maybe you dont see it but yeah..i do try so hard to save this relationship from arguements because like i said, i dont want to be apart from you because i know i will regret it in the long term.

    Your my first proper relationship and my longest relationship. you make me feel speical. you showed me what the meaning of love is.  Love is a strong word and can have mix emotions. however, you showed me that love is full of happy memories and tears and missing you is also a part of the love. since i been with you, i treasured the happy memories and when i think back, it makes me smile, all the silly things we have done together and all the laughs we have done together. holding you and hugging you makes me warm. makes me feel loved and wanted. never wanting to let you and its a good feeling. missing you when we are not together, thinking about you, all of these is love. moreover, sad times should be forgotten or being put behind because it could well ruin our relationship so sad moments we have shared, i dont think about.

    i just love you so much that i dont want it to end, i want it to carry on.

    when i say 'i love you' it means alot. i dont say it often but when i do, it means a hell of a lot. its all my emotions and effort put together for you to feel it as well as hear it.

    this blog is not very lovey dovey as previous ones but yeah..this one seems more mature o__O

    but yeah.

    Yingg..i love you so muchh <3

    290609~ 3 months baby

    <3

    From the one that truely loves you,

    Shirleyy <3

     

    p.s..why is there highlights like on half of this blog? o__O

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

  • Thats enough.

     It's enough.

    You won't talk to me. You don't even understand me.

    I'm not even trying as hard anymore because I want to see what you can do.

     

    Your avoiding me. Fine if thats really what you want to do then okay fair enough.

    Do everything your way.

    Whatever.

    Don't listen to me.

     

    You don't love me.

     

Wednesday, 10 June 2009

  • YinG-Boob :D

    harlo harlo. came to blog blog agains..because i am just too nice and too amazing x] i decided to share our outings with your xanga readers ^__^" but first..let me tell you something yinG-Noob x] i love you. every single part of you. inside and out. although you dress like a chav when your indoors..but its okay..its only for me to see ^0^" and and..i know i call you fat and short and that yeah? but your not really fat. your normal gah la. your quite toned. i mean i have a bit of a belly so no worries and okay am taller than you but its okay. am too unique for a asian girl ^o^ but no matter what lah~ i love you as the way you are; even if you always burp in my ear and my face x] pretty disgusting huh guys? but yah..i thnk am kinda used to it now. but anyway..yeahh..i love you ying ^o^. words cannot describe as i said it to you today in your bedroom. i love you ^o^"

    Outings:

    22nd march'09~

    This is the day when i frist met you. i remember..when i walked up to you while being on the phone to you...gosh man..you was dark for a chinese but also ho ying jai and i liked it. i was pretty quiet at frist. you did all the talking. but you know girls..always shy with the guy we love x] we went to troc..things us asians do when we go central london lmao~ you tried to get me to play PIU with you i think but i refused haha!! because i cant play. and your just too good. but the best memory of that day when you was playing PIU is that..you PK'ed! ROFLLMAO! omgosh..that did crack me up. shame you didnt have an audience. otherwise it would of been the best moment of 2009!~ looooool~ then Hmm what happened leh..o yah..you was gonna meet david chen. a boy who has the same surname as me and has a sister with the same name as me lmao. but yeah..i also rememeber..you had £3 in your bank! i was laughing so much. you had to call your mum and bro to transfer money into your bank! how funny lmaoo~ but then your friend david was a nice guy. he lend you £10 x] then i think we went back to troc and you gamed with the boys. then we went for a haircut..where harry and david got their haircut and we went to sit in a park and just hugged x] then my friends came..ming and ian..then we went to take stickies like a double date lmao. then we went our seperate ways but when i had to go..i came back to give you a goodbye hug and kiss though. arent i lovely? ^o^" then then..thats the day we confessed to eachother we liked eachother..Awww how cute ne ^o^" anyway..moving on..

    29th march'09~

    second time meeting. but this time it was with alot of friends in central. cant really remember what happened though but i remember me getting home really latee and i got shouted at ><" but still..days with you its too amazing. we took our first stickies together though. just me and you. so romantic ne ^^ oh oh..this day is the day we made it offcial. woah. we are going to last forever and never end x] o yeah and we went ice skating ahaaha. i failed. sorry i didnt hold your hand at ice skating. but i couldnt skate so had to trust the pros >< but then after..i stopped coz it got boring coz i couldnt do it. haii >< but then we was just chatting and stuff. i remember ying-wei pk-ing like loads lmaoo and ming giving you a ****..yeah. pretty funny! looool~ cant really remember that day much..but moving on..hahahaha..

    30th march~09

    this is the day i saw you before you went on your easter holiday T___T i bunked school for you. hahaha. we went to canterbury. we went shopping then went to eat at nandos. o gosh. you was a bloody pig! LOOL! then we went o the park to just chill out. we saw some fattie couple next to us hugging and everything. eee man lmao. but it was nice being there with you. doing nothing with you will still make me happy because seeing you is just fine with me. but but..the next day you had to leave. AHH >< haii..thinking back to those times agains now. was so hard. aiyor..you left me in the UK while you went out there to have fun. >< but its okay..i knew you didnt enjoy it as much because i wasnt there..mwahhaha :D but yush..^^ also that is the day you gave me your hoodie laa..it smells of youuu..and i kept it ever since because that is something i have of you and when i miss you i just wear it and its just like you are here with me x] o yes. i remember..when we was at the park..and you kept tickling me! WTH man >.> you use my weakness to the extreme now. you tickle me to make me do things o.O mean!!! >.> but yeah..moving on~

    26th April'09~

    i remember i waited like 3 weeks so that i could see you. when you was back from your holiday i was so excited and that day i came over to tonbridge to see you. you was late. you made me wait but its okay. i'm nice ^^ then woah so leng jai aahaha. had your hair done and everything and we went to tunbridge wells and went to the little shopping centre but not much shop was open but it was okay lah~ quite a nice place then we went to cinema i think to watch the boat that rocked and this is the day we share our **** x] i thought it was well weird at first lmaoo. sorry..but im not as experienced x] but yeah it was okay after lah~ but we had to walk for ages though because the cinema is quite fae away from the train station. haii ><" it was verli tiring but then we went back to yours for abit and met your family. your bb bro is so shy. he kept covering his eyes when he saw me lmao and ying-wei! his some joke man ROFL xD then met your mummy. shes like same age as my mummy ahaha. they can be friends y'know xD then your mummy gave me loads of stuff..aiyorr thankQ so much lah~ not much else happened i dont think it was just a simple day out but all good because i got to see you~ moving on..

    3rd may - 4th may'09~

    Long weekend..parents away and you came down to see me. although later on we was with other people but it was still good. you came down quite early to see me. you came round my house and i showed you around the house and yes my house is bigger than yours and my room is bigger than yours x] but that house wont belong to me soon!! ><" we just watched tv and chatted and stuff then we went to westwood to have a walk around then came back home to wait for ming and ian to arrive. we then went to the seafront and mugged about haha. i remember you asked me out like twice that day and i rejected you for a joke. you know i love you lah~ hahaha. then we went to watch a film together; after the film we went to nandos to have dinner and i treated you. that dinner better of made you full x] then we went back to mine..chatted..play big2..watched tv..watched white chicks etc and went to sleep. following day..we went to canterbury..shopped around and went to planet lazerr then went to watch xmen and went dinner at wagamama then everyone had to go home and i had to say goodbye to you after a long 2 days with you. and i kinda told you to go on the wrong train ROFL. am sorry..but you got home faster lah~ yupp..moving on~

    14th may'09~

    this is the day i had my chinese oral exam before seeing you. seeing you just realise all the stress ahaha. we went back to my house but it was a proper slow walk because you was nervous about meeting my family but then i got effin shouted at by my mum when i entered the living room about using my dads keys! WTH man ==" this day i think..you was going to help me with my business revision but you failed because you cant remember much. you also had lunch with my family and you wouldnt even come downstairs to eat aha. we then went to westwood and you brought me an outfit. thank you so much arh~ then we went to watch angels and demons. not much else happened though.

    19th may'09~

    i had a haircut that day ahaha! and that was the only day i had nice hair ennit? xD it was proper thinned out x] we then went back to my house and was just chatting and sleeping. i slept for 30mins i think because i was tired aha. we then went to the cinema and watched star trek. we also camwhored that day. took a few photos..but i think yeah..every time we go out..we should take photos ahaha. treasure our moments together x] but meh..not much la..just the usual cinema day i think haha.

    24th may - 25th may'09~

    another long weekend with you~ this day i was suppose to go to some uni open day that i made up because my mum wont let me go central ahaha! o well. worth it though coz i get to see you. i got the train at like 7am! fucking early man and i got to your house around about 8.30am literally a uber early day start with you ahaa. i met your dad for like 2mins..he looks like you x] so leng jai ^o^ i think we headed out to central around about 11.30am. when we got to central..we went to cafe de HK to see jason!! talked to him for about 10mins to catch up then we had to go..we went to troc and on our way to troc we saw ron and gar and that and you brought me my hellokitty watch ^^ thank you ah~ then we met xav and we was in troc for a little bit and david came as well. we was also singing stupid songs we made up. hakka and canto and mando songs of lee hom! haha! we then went for lunch at a jap place to eat then i think we went for stickies and where we met sabee and joanna. also met MK and lawrence! was nice seeing everyone wasnt it? also met joyce and ming and ian too. big group. haha. we then went to cafe de HK to get drinks i think then back to troc and gaming. and then me and you went off to stickies to take photos then i couldnt be bothered to say bye to everyone and we was going to go home but then we went to traf sqaure and met up with MK and lawrence agains and just chatted until 8pm and then we went home. following day spent it with you too. although we didnt do much. we just went to have lunch and you showed me your work place and such and yeah i had to go..

    27th may-28th may'09~

    we spent another 2 days together. on wednesday..you got here quite late. i think around about 1pm. i showed you around ellington park and then we went home to have lunch. then we went to the cinema to watch drag me to hell. while we was there..we saw gar-ho and jon and said hi to them x] but enting couldnt watch it with us. aiyorr >< but the film was really jumpy and we sat right at the front as well so it was like double jumpy and you kept shaking me and you screamed! you scream like a girl! LOOOL!! yeh then we went home and you had to sleep in the basement and you sneaked into my room at 4am! then Hmm next day..we went to the beach. took photos..made things out of sand ahaha! it was a funny and sunny day then you had to go home =[ and that week, we been with eachother 4times..so we been seeing eachother loads latly which is good haha. brings us closer x] so i can imagine our holiday is going to be really good because thats like 3 weeks together. woah ^o^"

    3rd june'09~

    this is the day i came to tonbridge~ i got to yours uber early agains. and i wasted 37pounds on the ticket! omgosh!! O__O i was round yours until about 1ish..went out to town to have lunch then to town for your dad then went to the cinema to watch night of the museum 2~~ after that, we just went dinner with your daddy. i could of stayed round your house but couldnt because my mum is too strict and said no. haii!! o well. you took me home..well your family did and thank you for that but you kept sleeping in the car haha because you didnt sleep the previous night. your so silly haii >< Hmm yeah..thats wht really happened really..dinner with your family was good. well..EMBRASSMENT! in sun sai gei! omg! you guys dont even wanna know what happened! LOL! but yeah ^__^"

    7th june'09~

    central london day.

    meh..carry on soon. wrote too much!! haha!

     

    iloveyou ying <3

     

     

     

Sunday, 07 June 2009

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